Saturday, June 28, 2008

Day of rest

Today was our sabbath day! Let me tell you it was so restful!

We woke up with no set plans just a mood for adventure. We met up with Karl( Brittany's boyfriend) and Ana. Ana took us to this amazing place she goes to all the time. I have never seen anything like it. We hiked through the trees and through a river. Honestly it was so amazingly beautiful. We found this area that was a little scary for me but I made it down with their help. That was such a good moment. To hear their encouragement and to just let go my fears as they guided my steps and balance was just awesome! I feel like that was such a growing experience in that little 5 minute ordeal. We went back to Ana's and did some hot tubbing and then dinner. After we went out for ice cream and then back home. The day was great. Spending the day in nature like that really can recharge a person!

Tomorrow we are going to church and then we are working on the "Jesus for President" tour event that HCM is hosting! Yes!! I am so excited to meet Shane Claiborne!

Things at camp are getting so much better. I am forming relationships with the kids in my group and am starting to feel a lot more comfortable with what I am doing. I am really loving it even though it is super stressful at times. These kids mean the world to me! I feel a deep connection with my kids.

I have been reading the Hartford Courant(the news paper) and it seems like things are getting pretty nuts recently. Just the other night we heard a high speed chase out our windows. Someone was shot a few days ago and according to the newspaper 2 more on thursday. Please just be praying for the city of Hartford. Please be praying for the saftey of the children of Hartford. Please pray for me and the other interns!

I hope everything is great in San Diego!

<3
Julie!

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Already week 3?!

This week started off extremley stressful.

Monday was camp planning day. It was almost a blessing that the car hit our building because we got a chance to do some vital planning and spend some time together. Things were a little tense at some points but not bad.

Yesterday camp was nuts. We changed around some of the groups. It was also the first day of camp since the crash. The kids had so much energy it was insane. Some of them were having a little trouble controlling their anger which resulted in them being suspended from camp for the rest of the week.

Today went so well. I really feel like I connected really well to a few of my kids. It was great just hanging out and chatting about their hobbies or what kind of pets they have. I feel really blessed to have the group that I do. They are all getting so comfortable.

I am feeling great about this summer. Especially today. I am finding it easier to step out of my comfort zone. Both today and yesterday I was in the bible story skit as a grape(we are teaching about the fruit of the Spirit) I looked ridiculous. But it was so fun. I loved it. I feel more confident in what I have been called to do this summer. This mornings devotion really encouraged me.

We are about to eat dinner soon and then we are going to a street fair type thing for our outreach! I feel like this will be such a great experience! A Hartford street fair...bound to be exciting haha and maybe a bit crazy!

Ohhh I'm so excited because Shane Claiborne and Chris Haw (Authors of Jesus for President) are coming to Hartford on Sunday and we will be hosting a pot luck and a book discussion type event for them! How amazing! I am so excited to meet them and talk with them. (Shane Claiborne also wrote the irresistible revolution) It's gonna be amazing!!

I should go though!

Have an awesome day everyone...I'll update soon!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Everything is changing all around me

God is so good. The pond house will be available to use for camp again! So we will resume camp on tuesday!



Yesterday was so great. We did some yard work outside and then we had our team sabbath.

We went to Brittany's( one of the interns) house in Avon, CT and went swimming and had dinner with her family. Then we went to the drive in and saw Kung Fu Panda. Well I slept through it but what I saw was pretty good. Then we went to Ana's house( one of Brittanys friends who is now all of the interns friends) for a bonfire. I was reminded of home as Steve and Ana played worship and we hung out around the fire. All of us were relaxed with out a care in the world. With such an emotionally draining week we actually were energized and relaxed. It made me miss the alphabet bonfires so much. I then had the thought that as I am back home I will be missing these times.

I just got a text from a friend( Keith) saying that I was missed. Hmm these are the moments where I miss home.I miss you guys but I am so afraid to go back home. I have been so blessed to be able to keep in touch with so many of you. Being away from home is not as hard as I thought it would be but it has its rough moments.

So far living in this intentional commuity has been amazing. These people are great. The kids are great. I can't wait to meet and interact with so many new people. God is really working in my life and of the others around me. I love hearing these peoples stories! I love walking and holding the hand of a child at camp while chatting about their intrests and about their pets or about their family. It's amazing. They are so loveable.

Please be praying for these kids. Please be praying for us, just that God will open our hearts and our minds. Pray for a good week, a much better week than last week. As we learn more about these children my heart breaks a little bit more for them.

If you guys have anything you need me to specifically pray about message me on facebook!

<3 Love you guys!

Friday, June 20, 2008

oh man!

This sure has been an interesting week.

Things got a little better after Monday. Each day was a little bit easier.

The other interns are great. It is great just being able to relate to them, study with them, learn with them. Besides camp we really didn't do a bunch this week. Last night though we went to a friends church for like a college age worship/message night. It made me miss Flood and the community of flood.

So, I would say things are going good. Sorry this isn't that interesting.

But I do have a major prayer request.

The pond house(where we meet for camp) got hit with a car on thursday night in a high speed chase with the police and like 4 other guys. No one was hurt but as of last night the guys got away. Anyway, The state came in and the mayor and everyone like that and condemed the building. So we now have no place to hold the next 6 weeks of camp. Please be praying for this. These kids need this camp. This may be the only time they ever experience who Jesus is.

Thank you so much. If there is anything you guys need just let me know!

Monday, June 16, 2008

Be gentle with me Jesus as you tear me apart...

Today, well...it was rough. I was so excited for camp to start. I am still excited for camp with these kids. We were all running around on not much sleep and too much coffee. It was a pretty entertaining thing to watch I must say.

Before we headed to the pond house(where camp is) we prayed in a group with all of the interns, directors of the camp, and all the high school volunteers...Let me just say that that was the most powerful prayer that I have ever been involved in. We have been called to love these kids. It was moving to see how many people came to help out.

Camp started crazy and unorganized...it's expected on the first day. The kids started showing up and we were all pumped. As I introduced myself to them and as I met my group I was so excited. I would be their leader for the rest of the summer. Amazing. Soon after I became discouraged when one of the kids in my group wanted nothing to do with camp or with me/other interns. As my friend Steve talked to him he felt more comfortable and I realized that it was probably because Steve is a guy and I'm a girl. It makes sense and I understood. I was still honestly a little bummed and felt like I wasn't doing enough to make Dion comfortable but I accepted it and went on with things.

We made anti-violence posters next and this is where my heart began to break. I was making my poster that said Violence is not the answer, Jesus is and I watched a young girl write :Stop the shooting. And then I witnessed a conversation of two young girls talking about how one of their uncles got shot and they went to the funeral. At that moment I had no idea how to respond. I felt sad. I felt angry. I missed God in that moment. I wondered where he was in that situation and wondered why these girls had gone through this.

The rest of the afternoon was kind of a blur. I had to stop myself from crying several times. I couldn't show the kids how much their pain became my pain. I got through the day and we went back to the house. Eventually I found myself in my closet praying. Eventually I was crying on my bottom bunk bed area feeling so sad and lost and unsure. Brittany walked in the room in a very simalar state like I was in. We sat on my bed crying and discussing the day. She told me about a girl who was in her group crying because she was afraid she would be the next in her neighborhood to get shot. She then told me about a beautiful moment where she took the girl in a room and the little girl prayed out loud for God's love and comfort. We were called out to dinner and the two others( Steve and Patti) asked us how the day went for us and we told them with tears in our eyes that we would tell them later. We finished eating and then talked about it. More tears but we needed to lay what happened on the table.

Evening prayer time was much needed too. We went around the room talking about where we saw God today and where we missed God today. We prayed for the kids and we prayed for each other.

Tomorrow is day two of camp. Please pray for all of us interns and everyone else involved. My heart has never felt this broken before

Thank you to everyone who has been praying for me. I love you guys.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

The end of week one

I can't believe I have been here for a week already! The community has been amazing.

Today was just not my day. I fell down the stairs when we were leaving for church. Ow! The left side of my body is a little sore. And lets just say that it is kinda hard to sit right now haha. Oh yeah I was wearing a skirt too! Later I cut my middle finger opening up a new Venus razor I bought. Yeah my hand slipped and the tip of my finger is kinda flat now and not to mention throbbing. Awesome.

Today we went to an African American Baptist church. It was one of the first all African American churches in Hartford. It was really cool. Totally different but worth the experience. They had us stand up and introduce ourselves to the church. It was really welcoming. It was such an awesome thing to experience such a welcoming community of believers.

We had bbq for Josh, one of the graduating seniors who lives upstairs. It was a lot of fun just hanging out with everyone who lives in the house and all of the kids.

We had our weekly debrief and prayer after the bbq. I didn't realize until tonight how much God has already changed me. My dreams and desires for the future are changing.I don't know exactly what that looks like yet but something inside of me is changing. I can't wait to see what else he has in store for me.

I should be getting to bed. <3

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Update!

Oh man! Last night was the best night of sleep I have had since being here! Yesterday was so overwhelming. There was a lot to do and a lot to learn and we were all exhausted. Praise God for the ability to rest and wind down! This has been a long week for sure! We are all pretty drained.

We learned more about the camp we will be learning! It sound's amazing!
Basically it's going to be a 3-4 hour day camp and each intern will be like a group leader for about hopefully ten kids. We are going to be doing games, devotions, memory verses, bible stories and a bunch of other fun things!

We spent a few hours in the city today just meeting families and interacting with new people. I love it! These people are amazing and to a point more approachable than some people in San Diego.


Right now is our sabbath time. We are not allowed to work on any camp stuff or anything HCM related...we are all pretty lost on what to do. I have not set up a time to just rest in so long. I don't know what to do with myself haha

Prayer request- Please just pray that more kid's will sign up for camp. Pray that we can show these kids that people do love them and do care about them. Pray that they may come to understand what Christ did for us and that their lives be changed by it!

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Day 3

So today we learned about the city of Hartford, particularly the north end where I am at.
Wow. Some shocking and heartbreaking statistics for sure. We spent the day at the library researching about the city and gave a presentation back at the house.

Yesterday we gave life stories. It is amazing to see where people have come from and what kind of things people have experienced in their life. I gave mine and it went a lot better than I thought. I mean I left some out...not by choice I was just nervous and forgot to add it in.

Tomorrow is my day to lead the morning devotion. I am doing it on 1 Thessalonians 5 :)

It has been so encouraging to talk to some of you this week. Thank you again.

Today wasn't the most interesting day but tomorrow we will be getting more insight on the way our summer look. Also we will learn more about the camp that we will be helping with!

I am so excited to spend the summer with these kids! I can't wait!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Where do I even start

Well...

I got here around 12:15 on monday. As I sat in my car I read a letter from a friend that was just so encouraging. I kinda fell apart for a few minutes then prayed about the summer. I wiped away my tears and went to the door. I was welcomed and instantly felt excitement!

I was the first one here. I unpacked and waited for the others to arrive. I was so excited to meet everyone! Soon everyone arrived and we all settled in.

We did introductions and activities to get to know each other. That was such a good time. We ate an amazing dinner and got to know the other people who live in the house.

Today we did a devotion in the morning. Then we played a game of monopoly that was a little bit rigged. haha I lost. After that we got the assignment to go out into the city only using public transportation to do a hartford scavenger hunt! Jim also gave us a budget of 5 dollars a day for three meals for the rest of the week. That is the same as a family on food stamps. Our task was to buy 15 meals on 80 dollars for 4 people. It was really amazing to experience how people live. To go out in the scorching heat, using only the city bus buying 80 dollars worth of food and then getting it all back home. It's harder than it sounds.

Tonight we had a bible study. Who knew that the book of Amos would be so interesting! haha and then had our intern prayer time. After that Steve,one of the interns, played his guitar and we had a little bit of worship. Now here I am and there is a thunderstorm! Amazing!

I am so glad I am here! I love this already! I will update as soon as possible! I love you all! Thank you for all of the prayers. Know that I am praying for all of you as well!

-Julie!

Sunday, June 8, 2008

In my love be lifed high...

So tomorrow is the big day.

It has been such a good week. I have reconnected with old friends and have already formed new relationships.

I am going to be a honest though. I am scared to start this. Everytime I have told someone from CT what I will be doing they have all got super serious looks on their faces and have said "good luck" or things like "oh wow, be careful out there" Nice things to say but...not very comforting.

I realized going into this that North Hartford is not the safest city to be in.I knew that I would be challenged. I knew that I was going to be living in a community with one of the highest crime and poverty rates. Last night I was awake for so long worrying about this.

Questions like Can I handle this? What if I get hurt? Is my heart prepared for what I will see and experience? ran through my head all night as I tossed and I turned.

And after some reflection and prayer I realize that God would not have given me this chance if I could not handle it. As scary and challenging as this may be God has placed me in Connecticut for His divine purpose.

So I am going into this with only my own expectations and not those of others. I will hang on to the encouraging words I have been comforted with and dismiss the thoughts that made me nervous.

My hope for this summer is to serve God and grow in my relationship with Him through a broken community .

Friends, I ask that you be in prayer for me this summer. I will keep you updated as much as possible. I love you and miss you all!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

:)

Can I just say that God is so Good?!

As I prepare to start the internship on Monday, God has provided amazing people for me to stay with! It's a scary feeling to be thrown into a situation that will just rock your world...but Tegan and Todd have been amazing! ( Todd is my old youth pastor and Tegan is his amazing wife who was the biggest female influence I had after becoming a follower of Christ!)

God is just pouring out his blessings and his love.

I still miss my road trip buddies!:(

I am feeling a little more comfortable with starting next week. Still nervous but my heart is settling down a little bit. I'm not as anxious...but just wait til sunday night haha

Thanks for reading friends!

Monday, June 2, 2008

We made it!

We made it!

Today has been hard. It has been great but I have found myself so many times having to hold back tears. I was afraid that once I started I wouldn't be able to stop. Its how I fell asleep the night we arrived and for a nap today.

Wow! I guess that is all I can say! I can't believe I am here! I can't believe the trip is over.

I am so excited on how well it went!

Highlights!

Wednesday:
Left SD at 5:40 pm
Listened to amazing mixes made by Rachel and Karin
Saw Vegas
Amazing conversations

Thursday
Still driving and no sleep
Watched the sunrise at some random place in nevada
Drove through beautiful Colorado
Amazing Conversations
Rest!!!
Spending the night in Nebraska. So relaxing and peaceful

Friday:
More driving.
Lunch with Keiths friend
More amazing conversations
Motel 6 sleeping was amazing

Saturday:
First white castle experience
Drove to Canada! amazing!
Spent time with our couch surfing friends Kyle and Satwant

Sunday:
Niagra Falls! Wow...so great!
Going through customs like 3 times haha
The new york drive
arriving!

Monday-
Sad day...dropping Keith and Danny off at the airport. I didn't know how hard that would be. Talk about an emotional rollercoaster all day...
Amazing breakfast lunch and dinner
3 hour nap

This has been the best experience of my life. I can't describe hopw great it was. I have learned so much about my self and I have learned so much about God.

My internship starts on the 9th. Please be praying for me. Its going to be a good but challenging summer!

Rejoice in everything!